lol seems like an interesting mix
As for my personal situation, I have no idea what to think anymore. I think my last update I said I was probably done with the Brooklyn girl and the other girl had failed to meet up a couple times. Been wanting to type something out, but been really busy at work today. Anyway,
Well last weekend I was a bit too partied out from new years and miami that I just wanted to chill in and keep it simple, the Brooklyn girl was texting and decided what the hell, Ill see if she wants to chill... and she did. We just hung out, but I thought we got along well. The kissing was still poor IMO, but overall I enjoyed our time together more so than the past couple times. The next night we ended up hanging out again, pretty random to see a new girl on back to back nights for me, but I went with the flow. Another fun time together. Our kissing was still not great, but we had a much better make out session this time and I was ready to go if you know what I mean, but she didn't really act or do anything to make me feel like she felt the same. She didn't stop me from touching and whatnot, but I wasn't getting the feedback so eventually I stopped, it got late, and she went home. After she got home we were texting and I figured I need to bring it up so I asked Why she doesn't kiss with tongue and that I was interested in having sex but I couldn't read her again (which I brought up the night before) and her lack of response (she responded to the kissing and didnt stop me, but never made any of her own moves) made me think she was not interested in that and I told her I was not looking to make it awkward. So She responded saying she just hasn't been sexually active in awhile and she was enjoying our hook up, she also said she doesn't like tongue. I guess that could explain things, although I never heard of a girl who doesn't like to kiss with tongue. She then responded with lots of tongue emojis. So I think she is a cool girl and I like spending time with her, but if there isn't going to be any sexual interest from her part then it's not going to work for me. I'd like to think I can deal with her being inexperienced, but at some point it is going to cause me to lose interest if we don't get working on something. I think that may sound like I just want sex, but that's not true. But I need to be able to have sex and enjoy it before I can move on with someone, this is a road block for me. Sex doesn't need to be now or anything, its been like 4 dates, but the kissing needs to be better and I need to feel like I am not the only one trying in that regard.
As for the girl who ditched me twice, well she asked me if I wanted to meet up with her and friends at a bar to watch football. I thought that was a bit odd to meet a girl for the first time and also hang with her friends. I am not the most socially outgoing person so I really didn't like the idea of doing this, but I was pretty sure this wasn't going to happen so I played along, said sure let me know when. Around the time she had said, then came the excuse as expected. So late last night I just figured let me get this over with and call her out.... asked her if she had any interest in me. She said yes, I said it doesn't seem like it. I don't like getting blown up, I value my time, I am not interested in chatting forever (been over three weeks at this point and in my head I tell myself Ive gone to LA, Miami, enjoyed the holidays, got sick, recovered, AND MET TWO OTHER GIRLS since we started talking so I can't imagine an excuse). Well she said she understood and offered to hang out tomorrow night. I said sure, but I am skeptical. If it's cancelled I am done with her.
Then meanwhile a girl I dated last year has been chatting with me again, said shes been thinking about me. I dont know what to think about that, but Ive been chatting back. She is a nice girl and we just didn't feel a connection last year so things faded out, but Im not sure if there will be something this time. She nor I have made any attempts to hang out again.
And then there's the girl I just ended things with and we've been friendly chatting. She started telling me her problems with trying to find a guy now and some asshole on okcupid was trying to get with her and then when she denied him, he said some nasty things. Not sure what the point of this conversation was, for sympathy? for jealousy? For legit friendly conversation? No idea. I went with the flow and would like to be friendly so we shall see with that.
Anyway, sorry for the long post.