can you share some idea on how to make my posts less of a mess? i want to be a member of the community but i keep trying and everyone seems to hate me and my thoughts
I got online almost 30 years ago, and back then there was this thing called "netiquette" - online etiquette. To make sure you didn't do something offensive or cross some sort of line, it was best to simply silently observe (AKA "lurk") for a while until you got a feel for the community you were trying to be a part of. For example, I was most interested in getting involved with the Ytsejam Mailing List, which was the e-mail precursor to the online forums like this one. I don't recall how long I lurked, but it was probably at least a couple months before I dipped my toe in the water with my first post.
With the internet being the norm and so widespread these days, the idea of following netiquette and lurking for a bit before going full force in posting is something that seems to be long lost. Looking at your profile, while you joined here on August 4 and waited 2 weeks to post, from that point onward you've repeatedly posted a barrage of various messages so that you average almost 7 posts per day. It's better for you to slow down and think twice before posting, asking yourself what is the general reaction to my post going to be? And maybe even ask yourself is it really necessary that I post this? Not saying that you can't post various hypotheticals, even like this thread, but don't always expect to get a great response.
Finally, I get the feeling you're trying to draw attention to yourself with some of your over-the-top posts. Maybe that's the case, maybe not. Either way, for someone new to the forum to do this comes off as annoying and obnoxious. Think of it this way: if you were to start working at a new job, after a couple of days would you start speaking to people like they're your bestest buddies in forever and drawing attention to yourself? I'd hope not. Best to start out with your head down, focused on the job you were hired to do, and then gradually open up as you get to know your co-workers better.