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Re: My mom passed away yesterday
« Reply #35 on: February 17, 2022, 06:01:20 PM »
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Re: My mom passed away yesterday
« Reply #36 on: February 17, 2022, 08:00:13 PM »
So sorry for your loss, you have my condolences. :hug:

Hang in there, it's never easy losing a close family member.
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Re: My mom passed away yesterday
« Reply #37 on: February 17, 2022, 08:22:02 PM »
So sorry for your loss, Kev. Losing my mum was the most difficult experience of my life, so I understand the devastation you are feeling. Glad to hear you have a close-knit family to help you deal with this.

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« Reply #38 on: February 17, 2022, 09:00:02 PM »
As someone who doesn't post a lot of personal details about my life here (or anywhere on the internet for that matter) I truly appreciate when someone feels comfortable enough with this community to write something as meaningful as Kev did, and feel my heart warmed by all the responses.
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« Reply #39 on: February 17, 2022, 09:12:35 PM »
Kev, I am so sorry for your loss.

At times like this, I get so frustrated that I wish I could say something else. I feel helpless knowing the pain you must be feeling, and the only thing I can do is offer up prayers, and simply the famous quote, “Empathy is your pain in my heart.” But I can’t come up with anything original. Just know that I do feel for you and I’m so sorry.
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« Reply #40 on: February 17, 2022, 09:55:14 PM »
Oh shit, I'm sorry man.

I can't even imagine.  :-\
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« Reply #41 on: February 18, 2022, 07:44:11 AM »
It sounds like you have family and friends to reminisce with...don't hesitate to lean on them.  Getting used to the void will be difficult. Thirty seven years from now, you'll remember everything about this week and next, good and bad, and then go 'man, of all things, I still remember doing that silly Rush song ranking on DTF, and cracking up at times ;)'

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Re: My mom passed away yesterday
« Reply #42 on: February 18, 2022, 08:01:25 AM »
My thoughts are with you and your family. I can't imagine what you're feeling right now. Nothing but best wishes from me and I hope that being part of this community can provide at least some distraction. :heart
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« Reply #43 on: February 18, 2022, 09:03:23 AM »
I'm so sorry to hear of your loss.  There are no words that can adequately convey relief, I know.  Just be kind to yourself as you move through this next part and trust that with some time you will be left with special memories and (hopefully) the companionship of others who knew and loved your mom too. 
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« Reply #44 on: February 18, 2022, 09:04:16 AM »
I know I said, "Thanks ahead of time for any condolences and well wishes," but thanks again, really. I appreciate every single one of the responses in this thread.

To add a bit more, as crushing as this continues to be, it was time. Mom was not getting any better, and had been saying for weeks that mornings (right when they'd wake up) and evenings (getting ready for bed) had become a nightmare for both her and my dad, who was her caretaker.  I never said this until last night when talking to my dad, but for weeks I had been thinking, "Please don't let this get to where Mom has to go into a nursing home."  I conveyed that thought to Dad last night and he was in agreement.  Now that we don't all wish she were still here, but I think you all know what I mean.

My grandma (on my Mom's side) passed away in 2013 at the age of 103 and she spent the last 10 years of her life in a nursing home, and I wouldn't wish that on anyone.  My mom pretty much went to see her there pretty often (probably every other day) when she could for those last 10 years, and I know she would not have wanted to end up in a place like that.  So, I am very thankful that it never came to that.   

She went at the right time.  And we - me, Dad, my brothers, her two still-living brothers (my uncles) both of whom are in their 80s now - were all at her side when she finally let go peacefully.

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Re: My mom passed away yesterday
« Reply #45 on: February 18, 2022, 09:18:02 AM »
My mom was diagnosed with Alzheimer's, and she's really starting to decline. It's heartbreaking, and part of me wants to hold my mom and keep her as long as I can (we're close), and part of me just wants mercy.  Mercy for her, mercy for my dad...  My dad is the strongest person I know, and even he is struggling with losing the essence of his wife of almost 60 years.

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« Reply #46 on: February 18, 2022, 11:28:18 AM »
My mom was diagnosed with Alzheimer's, and she's really starting to decline. It's heartbreaking, and part of me wants to hold my mom and keep her as long as I can (we're close), and part of me just wants mercy.  Mercy for her, mercy for my dad...  My dad is the strongest person I know, and even he is struggling with losing the essence of his wife of almost 60 years.

I hear ya. It is very human to hope for mercy, even if that selfish part of us (which I mean in a good way) wants them around for as long as possible.  Sorry you are having to deal with that.  :(

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Re: My mom passed away yesterday
« Reply #47 on: February 18, 2022, 11:55:45 AM »
My mom was diagnosed with Alzheimer's, and she's really starting to decline. It's heartbreaking, and part of me wants to hold my mom and keep her as long as I can (we're close), and part of me just wants mercy.  Mercy for her, mercy for my dad...  My dad is the strongest person I know, and even he is struggling with losing the essence of his wife of almost 60 years.

I hear ya. It is very human to hope for mercy, even if that selfish part of us (which I mean in a good way) wants them around for as long as possible.  Sorry you are having to deal with that.  :(

Thank you; but this is your thread.  I meant to commiserate, not steal your thunder!  :)

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« Reply #48 on: February 18, 2022, 12:10:56 PM »
No worries at all.  If anyone else is going through anything, by all means express here, there or anywhere.   :)

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« Reply #49 on: February 18, 2022, 01:59:44 PM »
Sorry about your loss Kev.

Loosing a parent.is like loosing a  part of you. They have always been there... now they are not.

Lost my father about a year ago. His health had been bad for about fifteen years.... it's still a shock.

Keep your dear ones close... you never know when it's over.

Sorry for your loss Kev!

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Re: My mom passed away yesterday
« Reply #50 on: February 18, 2022, 02:06:23 PM »
Kev, sounds like you had a great and close relationship with your parents. That's a wonderful thing and to be treasured for sure.

would have thought the same thing but seeing the OP was TAC i immediately thought Maiden or DT related
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Re: My mom passed away yesterday
« Reply #51 on: February 18, 2022, 02:26:13 PM »
I'm very sorry Kev... Prayer for you and your family for peace.

Many people here can relate and empathize with you and I'm no different.  My father passed in 2012 from a very rare form of cancer; it was sudden (less than 6-months from healthy and strong to passing) and a shock to my family.  For me personally, I received a great piece of advice from a very good friend in my Church... he said "Take a day and go somewhere that brings memories of your loved one, go there on your own and let it all come out.  Grieve, cry, scream if you have to, but say goodbye to the illness experience.  You'll come back, more than likely than not, focused on the good memories."

Perhaps it sounds obvious, but it wasn't for me, and it worked.  I went far out in the woods and found an old fishing spot my Dad used to take me to... I had with me a bottle of water and my Bible, and I let it out.  I came back ready to focus on the great times and not on the illness.  Maybe it will work for you too.

Your last line (knowing that she went at the right time, with all of you by her side), will help you much more than you may realize right now.  I had almost the exact same experience and it really does help when those hurtful thoughts creep in to the mind.

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Re: My mom passed away yesterday
« Reply #52 on: February 18, 2022, 09:59:16 PM »
vtgrad, I love it. Apologies for bringing up something so morbid as Pet Sematary, but when my cat died I paraphrased Jud when I talked to my daughter about it, as it was her first real experience with death (coincidentally, similarly to the impetus to King writing the story). Death is when the pain stops and when the good memories begin.
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« Reply #53 on: February 18, 2022, 10:52:52 PM »
So sorry to hear that, Kev. Losing anyone, especially a parent, is hard.

It'll hurt for some time to come but eventually, all the good memories you have will become easier to recall without dissolving*. And that's great because it sounds like you must have so many of them!

* hearing virtually any early track by The Beatles after a few beers is often still enough to set me off over my dad :biggrin: He died three years ago. Took me a while to be able to talk about him in the past tense without choking up but I'm okay now.
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« Reply #54 on: February 19, 2022, 07:23:34 AM »
Very sorry to hear this, glad that you can find at least some Community here to help share in the loss

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« Reply #55 on: February 19, 2022, 09:31:39 AM »
So very sorry for your loss.  Prayers and thoughts to you and your family.

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« Reply #56 on: February 19, 2022, 11:44:20 AM »
It is hard to reply to every post here, but, again, I appreciate all comments and sentiments.  And to those who have messaged me via PM or offline, I am not as full of words as normal, in case my replies were short.

To touch on a few things mentioned...

In regards to music, I actually turned it off Wednesday morning when I left work like Manute Bol to drive to the hospital and then again on my way home that evening after her passing, as I didn't want any songs to become directly correlated to that moment and be ruined for me forever.  Not sure how I managed the wherewithal to think that at the time, but I did.  And a few songs have been taken off of my phone for now (certain childhood favorites of mine that we would still listen to in recent years when we all just felt like listening to tunes together as a family).
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« Reply #57 on: February 19, 2022, 12:00:00 PM »
In regards to music, I actually turned it off Wednesday morning when I left work like Manute Bol...

Hahaha what?!
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Re: My mom passed away yesterday
« Reply #58 on: February 19, 2022, 12:38:35 PM »
In regards to music, I actually turned it off Wednesday morning when I left work like Manute Bol to drive to the hospital and then again on my way home that evening after her passing, as I didn't want any songs to become directly correlated to that moment and be ruined for me forever.  Not sure how I managed the wherewithal to think that at the time, but I did.

Interesting. That was a good move I think.
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Re: My mom passed away yesterday
« Reply #59 on: February 19, 2022, 06:13:39 PM »
I’m so sorry Kev
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« Reply #60 on: February 20, 2022, 01:24:03 AM »
Peace and love to you and yours, Kev.
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« Reply #61 on: February 20, 2022, 05:51:17 AM »
Sorry for your loss Kev.

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« Reply #62 on: February 20, 2022, 07:30:29 AM »
So sorry man. Always good to hear though about functional families.

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« Reply #63 on: February 20, 2022, 01:05:30 PM »
My deepest sympathy to you and your family Kev!   :sad:   I feel your pain.  It'll be 33 years for my mom this September.

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« Reply #64 on: February 21, 2022, 07:43:13 AM »

* hearing virtually any early track by The Beatles after a few beers is often still enough to set me off over my dad :biggrin: He died three years ago. Took me a while to be able to talk about him in the past tense without choking up but I'm okay now.

Some of you know me to be a big outlaw country fan, and in particular Kris Kristofferson.  I'm hoping that "Sunday Morning Coming Down" doesn't reduce me to tears every time I hear it after my dad passes.   It's even now sometimes hard to listen to that first Kristofferson album without feeling melancholy (when I was younger, in high school, I had a B-set of speakers from my dad's kick-ass stereo wired into my room; whenever he thought I was hungover, he would play either that record, or the American Trilogy from Elvis' live in Hawai'i to bust my chops). 

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« Reply #65 on: February 21, 2022, 08:31:03 AM »
My sincerest condolences
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« Reply #66 on: February 21, 2022, 09:01:00 AM »
My sincerest condolences

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« Reply #67 on: February 21, 2022, 09:03:48 AM »
My sincerest condolences

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Kev, I hope. Again, I'm not looking to take over this thread, just commiserate. 

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« Reply #68 on: February 21, 2022, 11:31:05 AM »
My sincerest condolences

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Kev, I hope. Again, I'm not looking to take over this thread, just commiserate.
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« Reply #69 on: February 21, 2022, 03:42:03 PM »
Thanks again for the condolences, peeps, and Bill, I get it. Thanks for sharing that.
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