Holy shit, dude...
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Here's another one of mine, inspired by she who purports to be my mother.
I am not here for your amusement
for I fail to see the comedy in this
I was not placed on this planet to be your punching bag
I'm already aching and bruised enough, thank you very much
I do not exist to be your scapegoat
to conveniently lay your blame and guilt upon
I was not born to be your clown
I'm allergic to the face paint anyway
My survival does not depend upon
your constant laughter at my expense
You don't deserve to be in my thoughts at all as it is
for you are worthless, weak, and simple-minded
I don’t need your excess negativity
I have enough of my own to last the rest of my days
I don't have time for your doubts, fears, and worries
I'm too old for that shit, remember?
Above all else, I don't have room for you in my life
Especially since the more things change, the more they stay the same
So go right ahead and hold your grudges against me
If that's what helps you to sleep at night
It's your loss, you know
but blame me anyway, if that's what you feel you must do
since you're too chicken to tell me how you really feel
I can see that your fantasy world is much more fragile than mine
regardless of whether you care to admit to it or not
It's not my fault that your daddy left you
It's not my fault that your life didn't turn out the way you wanted it to
It's not my fault that your husband left you
It's not my fault that you pushed me away when you needed me the most
It's not my fault that your logic is flawed
and it's not my fault that you can't be happy for me
That is YOUR cross to bear, not mine
I don't want your fucking baggage anyway, since you're still clinging on to it for dear life
Piss off and leave me the hell alone then
I don’t need someone like you in my life
and I sure as hell don't need your disapproval of everything that I attempt
Since nothing will EVER be good enough for me
You're not God
so who the hell are YOU to fucking judge?
Let he who is without sin cast the first stone
Or did you not read that in The Bible?
Oh fuck it, just leave me be