On the topic of mental fitness, as most know, I've battled various degrees of depression for a long time (not even realizing it in my teens and 20s). I've had it under control for a few years now, but the past 2 weeks I've been in a bit of a malaise. Had a great workout 2 weeks ago, which wiped me out for a couple of days (that was fine). But then life and work/family priorities consumed pretty much all of my disposable time. Now I'm in the 'fuckit' mindset. I just gotta force myself to get changed into my workout clothes, and head downstairs - I'm lucky that way, that my gym only takes about 30 seconds to get to. I ALWAYS feel better during and after it, it's just a matter of getting my mindset to get there. There's just so many demands (both discretionary and non-discretionary) on my time, I'm torn all to hell about what I want to do... read (there's a lot I've got backlogged - comics, new books, old books, articles...? Game (I've got 6 that I haven't even touched yet)? Watch TV/movies I'm backlogged on? Self-help stuff I've had saved for months that I want/need to get to? Watch concert DVDs? Watch Leafs/Raptors? Ugh.
Doesn't help that I'm riddled with guilt anytime I take time to do something for myself... due to the years of mrs.jingle (both passively and outright) getting upset when I'm not spending 'enough' time with her (or the jingle.kids when they were younger) - basically, anytime to myself is not time with her, and has often triggered her issues with abandonment. It's part of the reason that I get up at 6am on weekends - it's the only time I feel guilt-free when doing something exclusively for myself.
There's a few other things tugging at my mental state as well, but nothing I care to discuss to the group at large at the moment.
Anyway, I'm gonna get changed and head downstairs shortly... time to get back on the horse.