So I was too tired to post about this last night, but I had a date with this OKC guy that went really well. The funny thing is, I almost wanted to cancel it because I was so tired and he seemed cool but I wasn't super attracted to his pictures or anything, but I am glad I stuck with it! He was way cuter in person- he has a great smile and very charming disposition. Like he's just very happy and enthusiastic, and his energy is good. We seem to have a lot in common, including a love for fancy beer and cheese. He is from Vermont and has an Italian background, so we had a lot to talk about there. He paid for our dinner at this Belgian beer place and then we decided to go to a brewery nearby (where I paid, but not nearly as much
). We had really good conversation that went from PG rated to X rated when we switched venues for some reason, and both agreed that we should have a "play" date. We made out heavily in the car and he said some shit that made me blush
. I drove him to the bus station (he lives in Boulder, which is the only bummer, and didn't want to deal with parking in the hood we met in) and we made a date for next weekend.
Of course, once I got home (and got off
) I started to ask myself questions like "Oh god, is this too good to be true?" Because the energy we had sorta reminded me of the really shitty relationship I had a few years ago (with the guy who didn't tell me he was engaged, started doing meth, and so on). So I was thinking shit, is he just a sociopath that has sucked me in with his manipulative energy and now he's going to suck the life out of me??
I know it's mostly irrational and I'm trying not to bring my baggage too much into it, but thanks to David the Douche I'm now much more leery of charming people. Like, just because my gut says all systems go doesn't mean I should trust it, unfortunately.
BUT I'm just going to go with the flow and enjoy it. If I see any actual red flags that's one thing, but this is more just me being a bit gun shy.