Ladies Man, you are.
And yeah, and my ex broke up with me about a month ago, but it doesn't have much impact because I just don't find myself caring too much.
Really I just don't know what to do with my life right now. I find myself being super bored. I go to school during the week and work with my mom on days I'm off. Just kind of a stale life tbh, but I always find myself having more fun when I have someone I can be close and intimate with.
Not at all. I just like to keep my options open until I meet someone I really like.
I empathize with you completely. I finally moved into my own place after my wife and I separated and now I can't be here for more than a few hours without an overwhelming feeling of sadness and loneliness, so I just pick up and go for a drive and usually wind up at Starbucks for a couple of hours. I miss the same things you do, that closeness and intimacy and the comfort. I thrive on comfort.
Just offering this, as I went through something similar not long ago... I know everyone is different, but for me, I couldn't sit in the four walls for long, and while I'm not a huge drinker, I would go to my local Irish bar and sit in the end seat and read the paper, do a crossword (I'm a xword nut), or just chat with the two bartenders I knew. Having said that, though, I would talk with ANYBODY. And it became fun in and of itself just talking to random people. You find a couple things: there are some FUCKED UP people in the world; no matter what your situation, there is SOMEONE in a situation that is similar; and people are generally friendly. But from that, you figure out things. I HATE doing my crossword with people (I say this to be funny, but most people are dumber than me), but I would sort of force myself to let it happen, and I can't tell you how many times I ended up with a name and phone number on the top of the folded up paper. Almost none of them panned out for anything, but that isn't the point. It gets you out there, it gets you forgetting about your situation, and it sharpens your conversation skills (for real).
Here's why this is important: for most of my life, I had a fear of being single. But after my divorce (perhaps the one time I was FORCED to be single) this tactic sort of took the edge off. So now, while I am dating someone I really like, and don't want her to go, I don't FEAR her going. I don't want to be single, but I don't fear it. I'm half-assed good looking, have a little coin, and can carry a conversation. I know I'll find someone, and in the meantime, I'm at an age where we're all adults, so to speak, so not everything has to be a "long term committed relationship" if you're following me. In an odd way, this has made my relationship better and more honest.