So for those who have read the pissed of thread, I've been sick with a cold, bronchitis, and now sinus infection since the first of the month. Needless to say, I've been feeling like crap for awhile--tired, achy, coughing every minute, cold, and not sleeping the best. Last night, I was sitting on the couch with my dog watching TV. I love the dog we have now, she's great and cuddly when she wants to be. But I found myself saying, "I wish Miller was here in a time like this." Miller was my dog who passed away almost two years ago. He was this big cuddly goober who liked to hang around you when he was sick. I've been missing him a lot recently, so he's been on my mind a lot.
When I was coming back home from the doctor's office this morning, I pulled into the driveway and standing in our side yard, mere feet away from me were two deer. Usually, they run away as soon as a car pulls up, but they didn't. I got out of the car and they stood there, staring at me. I said "Hi Max and Miller!" Max was our other dog that passed away a year prior to Miller.
I broke down and started crying. I said: "I really like to think that's them." It sounds stupid when I write it out, but in that moment it felt like they both were right there with me, two sources of comfort when I was sick. After Miller died, a deer started hanging around our yard more and more and our current dog would stare at him and the deer would stare too. I've always felt like a deer visit is a visit from Miller.
I needed a moment like that today.