I try.
He won't let me love him, but I try.
Every time I knock on his door, nobody answers. I'm not overreacting, because its not just a one-time thing. I've been to his house many, many times, and knocked until my knuckles bled, but he never answers.
And it weirds me out that the police are always around his place. It seems like every time I'm there, after a couple minutes I see police cars pulling into his driveway... I have to push my way thru the tall hedges, I don't want to get in the way of the police in case there's some sort of health issue or something going on.
Jeff, if you read this..... I want you to have the opportunity to get to know me beyond all the letters. I know you so well, and you don't know me - the flesh & blood me - at all. I feel like our relationship is very one-sided. I'm afraid that one day I'll forget why I longed to be so close. Please don't let this happen.
I won't let this happen.