Freaking forum ate my post. Well, time for a shorter version of it, I guess.
I used to claim I wasn't afraid, but I am. I really am. Just the very prospect of absolutely no consciousness, being
nothing scares me. All it took was a near death experience to make me realize that. Sometimes the thought of death as sleep helps, but not all the time. I just hope my death is either quick and painless, happens in my sleep, or above all else, is
not ironic.
Don't really believe in an afterlife, but some days I wish there is. There are so many people I'd like to see again...