So many of you know how I've been flip-flopping about whether I want to stay in CO or go back to the east coast. I have family and friends in both places and whatnot, making it pretty complicated and sort of a win-lose situation no matter what I do. Many of you also know I have been in a long-distance relationship for over two years (and have been with Tony almost five) and we are sort of on a "break" right now because I dunno wtf I want. Well, new developments in the past week or two:
-A week or two ago, I was told my last day on the job (as an on-call hospice social worker) would be the 26th. I knew this was coming (they are changing the organizational structure) but didn't have an exact timeframe.
-Tony had a job interview out here in Boulder, but I told him I didn't want him to make any sacrifices for me since he had said he
didn't want to come out here. I told him I wasn't sure what I wanted and needed some time to myself. In the week or so that we didn't really talk at all, he turned down the job here and took one in VT, so he is moving to VT I think next week.
-I have been considering moving back east yet again, possibly trying to set up interviews for when I go back there for my cousin's wedding next month... partially because of Tony, partially because of my friends and family there, partially because I miss the goddamn ocean, and on and on.
-Today, I find out my ex-supervisor (one of two full-time social workers at the hospice) is leaving October 5th. This opens up her position, which is essentially what I was doing before as an intern, only with a bigger caseload and full-time. She told the higher-ups that they should hire me if I want it.
Staying (provided I do get the job) means:
Making a lot more money, job security (we will always need at least two social workers), insurance and all that, getting much needed work experience (since many places won't hire those without a certain number of years)
but also means:
At least another year of being very far away from Tony, as well as all of the other people I love and care about on the east coast
Also, the climate of the organization is quite chaotic and always changing, which is usually okay but sometimes overwhelming when my own life is a mess, too. But as a whole I love the organization, believe in what they are doing, am totally in line with their values/mission, and have some awesome coworkers.