James, this is just how I view things, and I'm not trying to change your way of seeing things, but maybe you'll be able to relate to some of this... I went to catholic school my whole life and grew up in a catholic household, so I've spent my fair share of time thinking about this kind of stuff.
My view on god, Jesus, religion, and anything pertaining to those things is... it doesn't really matter. Personally, I find it pretty easy to tell the difference between right and wrong. That doesn't mean I always makes the right choice, but my intuition plays a key role in most of my decisions. I don't need a book or someone to tell me how to be a good person. I feel that you, too, have a good intuition as to what makes someone a good person. So I suggest just focusing on that. Don't concentrate on trying to please god, or understand god, or being a good christian. If there is a god, and you think that your actions are generally those of a good person... does it really matter? Would god punish you for being a good person, but unsure of things that we can't possibily even wrap our minds around? Personally, I think spending a sunday morning helping out at a soup kitchen or doing something charitable is a lot more worthwhile than spending your morning in a church hearing the same lectures you've heard your whole life.
I think religions serve a purpose in giving some people a reason to live. But what is wrong with just experiencing life and not worrying what happens after life? Again, your actions aren't always going to be the right thing, but if you are generally a kind, caring person, does it make sense to you that you'd be burning in a pit of fire for eternity? It doesn't to me. So the alternative, I guess, is either heaven or nothing. If there is a heaven, then that is great. If there isn't, then you were simply nice to people and made an impact on their life. Seems like a win/win situation to me.
Sorry... these threads always put me in a rambling kind of mood. That is why I generally don't post over on this side.