the only contact with another human was through the US postal sevice. I was allowed two peices of paper per day and one pen and one pencil. The guards I considered them to be non human, robots, is what I told my self. And I would push their buttons, testing their reactions. I turned off my "modern" mind, and let my "primal" mind loose. There are those who cant and there were some who totaly lost it. I knew how to turn my modern mind back on. I coped with it by reading the bible, cover to cover, over and over. the second time I went to prison was worse, because I was "with" an "orginization" and then droped, aka put in the hospital, while still in the County jail for lies someone was telling about me. So I was below the last rung, and had to fight to proove my worth, and fight I did. My primal mind came on and stayed on for 18 months the second day I was there, I got tackled by six guards,45 days in the hole. two months on the hoe squad, which is working in the feild building rows with hoes. I was charged with organizing a riot. and thrown in the hole 60 days.
false charges I just got everyone to sit down and ignore all the guards orders So it was no riot. damit I got to stop writing for a bit.
Its harder to keep my primal mind locked up when I start getting angry. I can only imagine what I would be like after doing 10-15 years.