I went through 2 years of really hardcore depression. This forum is one of the few things that helped keep me sane. I never wanted to take medication for it, but 3 months ago I started taking Zoloft. I must admit, it is the best decision I ever made.
See, I want to at least try antidepressants, but I don't think
they would prescribe me any unless I can prove that I really needed them, and while I do mentally, there's nothing in my life at the moment to really prove that I would
I think my depression could possibly be in part credited to my absolutely ridiculous sleeping schedule... I have no set pattern, sleeping anywhere from 2-16 hours and sometimes getting minor bouts of insomnia and staying up a few days straight at a time. I normally go to bed around 12-3PM
I need to fix that... that and the fact every waking hour is spent staring at a screen (although I recently quit the game, one of my characters on World of Warcraft alone was clocked in at 110+ days worth of playing time - meaning I had spent almost a third of 2009 playing that damn game).
I want to get out, be more active and see the world, but there's really been no opportunity for me to do that.
I have a habit of judging others unfairly and as such find it incredibly difficult to connect with people.
Pretty much this. Going to college and hearing what people talk about, and dealing with stuff like this: https://www.iowastatedaily.com/articles/2010/01/24/news/doc4b5d133d4668f127145726.prt (which I firsthand found) is fucking ironic and sad, considering the education these kids get.
Along with what you're saying, I prefer a much more secluded life so I don't have a facebook. I don't like dealing with all the social crap and I feel that life isn't very private with it.
I couldn't even imagine how I would react to college, considering how I felt towards people in just simple high school (and it was a good school. Although people loathed me and [possibly accurately] believed me to be a psychopath, I was only ever in one fight, and, uh... let's just say that I won). I mean, I'm definitely not the most moral and conservative of people (due in part to my apathy and misanthropy), but the average people today are such detached, selfish, disgusting, hypocritical bigots filled with misplaced pride that are just so fucking
stupid... and here in California, everyone is made of plastic.
...I'm doing it again
sorry, end of bitter spoiled teenaged mountain dew & misanthropy-fueled rant.