Pain hits like a ton of bricks. Finding out the girl who broke your heart, the girl you still love with all of your heart, has moved on to someone else, it really fucks you up. I’ve been trying to power through it, I have to with my job and band duties, but even when I’m around my friends and family, I feel so alone. I’ve started to veer towards my self-destructive tendencies, and my job is the only thing keeping me from going completely off the rails. Nothing has been able to fill the void she left, and I see the downward spiral on the horizon.