Darkshade, I don't have any magic words for you, but having seen this a couple times now (we have cancer in our family, at least on mom's side), I feel for you and your family. It can be heartwrenching to watch. I would offer that whether you move in or not for your own sake and for your parents, you're doing the right thing in reaching out to address your feelings as best you can. If walking helps, walk away. If writing here helps, write away (we'll read it!). If music helps, let us know and we can send you something. I don't know you or your family well, but in my experience, if it was me, my mom and dad would want my love, my strength, and would want to face this time with the knowledge that their son is carrying on any or all of those good things they've tried to teach me or leave with me over the years. My dad is handicapped, so I have a sort of head start on you in that way, but over the years I've learned the body is just a shell; the essence of your dad is so much more than that, and you still have some of that to share and enjoy and remember.