I'm not super depressed like I was a few weeks ago, but man do I feel lonely. It is so hard to find a gay guy in this school. I know its my senior year and I can wait, but I dunno... I just feel REALLY lonely.
I know it may not help much, but I echo what lonestar and reaperkk said. Dude, life after high school is way better. Of course, there will be some growing pains there as well, but the good outweighs the bad by far.
I don't feel that great.
All I've ever wanted to do is write music and sing and whatever, but I just feel so bad about myself that I feel like I wont ever amount to anything. Today I even just screwed around and recorded noises and posted that in the creative works subforum. It feels like I'll never write a song again.
I just think I would feel better if I had something to make me feel better about.
Music is an art, and I'm learning this fact myself more and more. I write music as well, and play in a band at church.
I've found that when you do NOT do it for fame/success/money, the pleasure truly is yours, it becomes a lot more fun, and it shows in the music you do. That also becomes a lot more attractive and will gain you fans that can share in your fun and experience. Live life, dude, don't try to gain life.
Sweet, I am feeling majorly depressed.
What's up?
I am feeling general loneliness. I'm trying not to vent to my IRL friends because it seems awkward. You guys are my friends as well, but a bit of anonymity and online community lets me vent easier, ya know?
Like, all of a sudden a lot of my friends are dating, and I feel abandoned. It's not their fault; we are all busy anyways with school, work, church, and stuff, but seeing them have something I'd also like to have. . .it just puts crap into perspective and can get me down.
I need to learn to be more optimistic and not focus on stuff like that. I know that already. I just break down every once in a while. I'll get my own girl one day again, I have faith in God for that.