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The Depressed/Angry Thread.
« on: January 30, 2010, 05:13:29 PM »
I'm not sure if there's another thread like this, but I am not in a good mood at all right now, and I thought it would be nice to have a place for all of us unhappy people to gather here when we're down and WALLOW IN OUR SELF PITY. The thing is, I'm actually being serious. Anyway, anyone else a sad panda at the minute?
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Re: The Depressed Thread.
« Reply #1 on: January 30, 2010, 05:21:30 PM »
I've been depressed horribly since dec 26th of 2009.
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Re: The Depressed Thread.
« Reply #2 on: January 30, 2010, 05:26:04 PM »
You just created my new home on this forum.
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Re: The Depressed Thread.
« Reply #3 on: January 30, 2010, 05:41:07 PM »
I've been depressed horribly since dec 26th of 2009.

Talk. Explain.

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Re: The Depressed Thread.
« Reply #4 on: January 30, 2010, 05:43:54 PM »
I've been depressed horribly since dec 26th of 2009.

Talk. Explain.

Broke up with my fiance, the only woman I've ever loved.
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Re: The Depressed Thread.
« Reply #5 on: January 30, 2010, 05:44:53 PM »
I has a sad as well :sadpanda:

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Re: The Depressed Thread.
« Reply #6 on: January 30, 2010, 05:45:19 PM »
I've been depressed horribly since dec 26th of 2009.

Talk. Explain.

Broke up with my fiance, the only woman I've ever loved.

Oh shit. I get it now. Bro, I'm really sorry. That's fucked up. You doing anything to try to get you out of this state of mind?

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Re: The Depressed Thread.
« Reply #7 on: January 30, 2010, 05:48:14 PM »
I've been depressed horribly since dec 26th of 2009.

Talk. Explain.

Broke up with my fiance, the only woman I've ever loved.

Oh shit. I get it now. Bro, I'm really sorry. That's fucked up. You doing anything to try to get you out of this state of mind?

I have no real job outside of my studio which have VERY few hours. So I'm trying to get my condo ready to sell, which of course isn't helping the depression issues. I'd go for a quick rebound score, but I'm butt ugly.
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Re: The Depressed Thread.
« Reply #8 on: January 30, 2010, 05:52:48 PM »
I guess I have a typical case. was bullied from the start of school until around the 10th grade. I fail with women, I'll be 18 in a few months and I've had three girlfriends, total, period. My longest relationship has been three weeks. I'm better at ruining things than fixing, I don't trust anyone, and my family annoys me. I'm a teenager.
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« Reply #9 on: January 30, 2010, 05:56:17 PM »
I guess I have a typical case. was bullied from the start of school until around the 10th grade. I fail with women, I'll be 18 in a few months and I've had three girlfriends, total, period. My longest relationship has been three weeks. I'm better at ruining things than fixing, I don't trust anyone, and my family annoys me. I'm a teenager.

Why are they so short? Who leaves who typically?
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Re: The Depressed Thread.
« Reply #10 on: January 30, 2010, 05:56:44 PM »
I've been suffering with diagnosed anxiety/depression for well over a year now. Not fun, some days are better than others. The best you can do is just try to keep moving forward.

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Re: The Depressed Thread.
« Reply #11 on: January 30, 2010, 06:01:40 PM »
I've been suffering with diagnosed anxiety/depression for well over a year now. Not fun, some days are better than others. The best you can do is just try to keep moving forward.

I'd suggest trying to find the root of it.
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Re: The Depressed Thread.
« Reply #12 on: January 30, 2010, 06:02:05 PM »
I guess I have a typical case. was bullied from the start of school until around the 10th grade. I fail with women, I'll be 18 in a few months and I've had three girlfriends, total, period. My longest relationship has been three weeks. I'm better at ruining things than fixing, I don't trust anyone, and my family annoys me. I'm a teenager.

Don't worry about it. I am 18 and I've never had a girlfriend.
Never even kissed a girl.
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Re: The Depressed Thread.
« Reply #13 on: January 30, 2010, 06:06:01 PM »
I guess I have a typical case. was bullied from the start of school until around the 10th grade. I fail with women, I'll be 18 in a few months and I've had three girlfriends, total, period. My longest relationship has been three weeks. I'm better at ruining things than fixing, I don't trust anyone, and my family annoys me. I'm a teenager.

Why are they so short? Who leaves who typically?
They leave me.
I guess I have a typical case. was bullied from the start of school until around the 10th grade. I fail with women, I'll be 18 in a few months and I've had three girlfriends, total, period. My longest relationship has been three weeks. I'm better at ruining things than fixing, I don't trust anyone, and my family annoys me. I'm a teenager.

Don't worry about it. I am 18 and I've never had a girlfriend.
Never even kissed a girl.
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Better than falling in love with a girl, having sex with her, finding out she just wanted to have sex with you, then her leaving you.
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« Reply #14 on: January 30, 2010, 06:07:12 PM »
Go track her down at band camp jim.
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Re: The Depressed Thread.
« Reply #15 on: January 30, 2010, 06:08:08 PM »
I guess I have a typical case. was bullied from the start of school until around the 10th grade. I fail with women, I'll be 18 in a few months and I've had three girlfriends, total, period. My longest relationship has been three weeks. I'm better at ruining things than fixing, I don't trust anyone, and my family annoys me. I'm a teenager.

Don't worry about it. I am 18 and I've never had a girlfriend.
Never even kissed a girl.
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Better than falling in love with a girl, having sex with her, finding out she just wanted to have sex with you, then her leaving you.
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That's brutal man. I'm sorry.
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Re: The Depressed Thread.
« Reply #16 on: January 30, 2010, 06:08:42 PM »
I've suffered from depression for the majority of my life and I pretty much kept it completely hidden from everyone I knew or came into contact with until I was 19. I still have it, some times more debilitating than others, but it isn't as crushing as it used to be for me. It's my lot in life, so I try not to complain about it too much; there are things I have done, can do and am doing to try to help. By far the best medicines for it are my friends and family.
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« Reply #17 on: January 30, 2010, 06:10:41 PM »
I guess I have a typical case. was bullied from the start of school until around the 10th grade. I fail with women, I'll be 18 in a few months and I've had three girlfriends, total, period. My longest relationship has been three weeks. I'm better at ruining things than fixing, I don't trust anyone, and my family annoys me. I'm a teenager.

Don't worry about it. I am 18 and I've never had a girlfriend.
Never even kissed a girl.
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Better than falling in love with a girl, having sex with her, finding out she just wanted to have sex with you, then her leaving you.

That's brutal man. I'm sorry.
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I've suffered from depression for the majority of my life and I pretty much kept it completely hidden from everyone I knew or came into contact with until I was 19. I still have it, some times more debilitating than others, but it isn't as crushing as it used to be for me. It's my lot in life, so I try not to complain about it too much; there are things I have done, can do and am doing to try to help. By far the best medicines for it are my friends and family.
Pretty much how I feel. Sometimes I wonder why I'm so unhappy, and if it's self inflicted. Sometimes I wonder if I'm just being stupid, or a drama king.
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« Reply #18 on: January 30, 2010, 06:17:43 PM »
Depression doesn't listen to logic. I can be fully aware that what I am thinking and/or feeling is completely irrational and contrary to reality, but am still utterly unable to stop thinking or feeling it. I can't argue myself out of it and I can't just change my mind. I think it's that way for most people who suffer from it.

Personally, my depression can be set off by environmental factors, but it doesn't need them; the seeds for it exist in me even when I'm feeling alright. I have gotten better as I have gotten older, but I still have my moments when I simply can't break free from it. Sometimes it's situational, sometimes it's purely emotional and cognitive.

I actually took a very long time to truly realize that there was something "different" going on in my head. As I said previously, no one knew how I felt until I was 19. I didn't even really know that what I was feeling was any different from anyone else until I was probably 14 or 15. I simply took the hurt and the dark thoughts as normal, although I did wonder how other people always seemed to be carefree. The more I've shared with my confidants, the better I've become at controlling my emotions and mood shifts.
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Re: The Depressed Thread.
« Reply #19 on: January 30, 2010, 06:20:48 PM »
Yeah, I go through seasonal depression. I generally get more sad in the winter. When someone offends me, or flames something I love, I go off. I'm bad at not feeding trolls. I've gotten into a fair amount of flame wars here, and have been threatened to be banned once that I can think of. I'm a very logical person, I MUST rationalize everything. Which makes depression piss me off even more, because I know I'm not being rational.
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« Reply #20 on: January 30, 2010, 06:24:20 PM »
Depression (and other disorders and even psychoses) is often linked to an increased creative mind. That doesn't mean non-depressed people aren't creative, but it does somewhat make the link as to why so many great minds suffer from them.

Van Gogh, Nash, Hemingway, Dickinson....
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« Reply #21 on: January 30, 2010, 06:25:48 PM »
Depression (and other disorders and even psychoses) is often linked to an increased creative mind. That doesn't mean non-depressed people aren't creative, but it does somewhat make the link as to why so many great minds suffer from them.

Van Gogh, Nash, Hemingway, Dickinson....

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« Reply #22 on: January 30, 2010, 06:27:02 PM »
And by the way it's not that creative people are more prone to disorders, it's usually that artistic people are more emotional than non. And too much emotion is called a disorder.....which I disagree with, but oh well.
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Re: The Depressed Thread.
« Reply #23 on: January 30, 2010, 06:27:13 PM »
I wouldn't say I'm depressed, but have a lot of anxiety. I'm up at college and I have one friend here, but he never wants to do anything. I suffer from a little acne, that I've never been able to figure out how to fix, and none of the people that live around me are people that I'd care to hang out with. Beyond that, I've sort of ignored them, and because of it I never exchange words with them, I don't even go to the house meetings.

 I've always thought that I've had a strong personality, just when it comes to talking with people I can never get it out. Part of me wants to scream out to anyone that I need help/love to talk but I always clam up so no one really thinks anything is wrong.

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Re: The Depressed Thread.
« Reply #24 on: January 30, 2010, 06:28:27 PM »
I do write a lot of poems...and I don't think I've ever had anyone just straight up tell me I wrote a bad poem. Like the one in my signature, came up with it randomly today.

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« Reply #25 on: January 30, 2010, 06:30:40 PM »
I do write a lot of poems...and I don't think I've ever had anyone just straight up tell me I wrote a bad poem. Like the one in my signature, came up with it randomly today.

And what a bad-ass poem it is.
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« Reply #26 on: January 30, 2010, 06:33:57 PM »
I too suffer from depression, for a looong time.  What I notice is that people have a misconception about the symptoms.  In my case, there is little desire to strive for the joyful things in life, and it is that constant state of mind that creates a persona that I reflect to the world.  It's not that I don't want to feel the joys of life,  I just have a constant view of myself that I'm not deserving of them, and it is this that propagates itself over all aspects of my personality, whether it be with family, friends, work, or matters of the heart.
I have been working on it for the better part of twenty years now, and especially the last sixteen since my daughter was born, if only for her benefit.  But it is hard to convince yourself that you are a good person worthy of love and attention when for your whole life, deep down inside, you never actually believed it.  I have gotten a lot better, but know that I still have a long way to go.
I should note that this forum has helped me tremendously in being able to honestly express my thoughts, opinions, and beliefs freely as I feel them in my mind and heart, and I feel it is a tremendous credit to all of you, the DTF, that you have accepted them openly, freely, and without prejudice.  For that, I sincerely thank you.
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Re: The Depressed Thread.
« Reply #27 on: January 30, 2010, 06:37:20 PM »
I too suffer from depression, for a looong time.  What I notice is that people have a misconception about the symptoms.  In my case, there is little desire to strive for the joyful things in life, and it is that constant state of mind that creates a persona that I reflect to the world.  It's not that I don't want to feel the joys of life,  I just have a constant view of myself that I'm not deserving of them, and it is this that propagates itself over all aspects of my personality, whether it be with family, friends, work, or matters of the heart.
I have been working on it for the better part of twenty years now, and especially the last sixteen since my daughter was born, if only for her benefit.  But it is hard to convince yourself that you are a good person worthy of love and attention when for your whole life, deep down inside, you never actually believed it.  I have gotten a lot better, but know that I still have a long way to go.
I should note that this forum has helped me tremendously in being able to honestly express my thoughts, opinions, and beliefs freely as I feel them in my mind and heart, and I feel it is a tremendous credit to all of you, the DTF, that you have accepted them openly, freely, and without prejudice.  For that, I sincerely thank you.
"I'm a worthless piece of shit" depression. That's the worst. Mine mostly stems from an alcoholic father and being bullied. I've been conditioned to believe I'm nothing. Can you think of what started yours? Or is it just completely there for a reason you don't quite understand?
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« Reply #28 on: January 30, 2010, 06:42:06 PM »
I do write a lot of poems...and I don't think I've ever had anyone just straight up tell me I wrote a bad poem. Like the one in my signature, came up with it randomly today.

And what a bad-ass poem it is.
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« Reply #29 on: January 30, 2010, 06:42:28 PM »
this thread is depressing

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« Reply #30 on: January 30, 2010, 06:43:56 PM »
Depression doesn't listen to logic. I can be fully aware that what I am thinking and/or feeling is completely irrational and contrary to reality, but am still utterly unable to stop thinking or feeling it. I can argue myself out of it and I can't just change my mind. I think it's that way for most people who suffer from it.

THIS THIS THIS THIS THIS.

People who dont suffer from depression have a hard time understanding this, because it is a difficult concept. Even when you know something isn't true, your brain will keep hounding on it until it eats away at you.I

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« Reply #32 on: January 30, 2010, 06:50:34 PM »
Depression doesn't listen to logic. I can be fully aware that what I am thinking and/or feeling is completely irrational and contrary to reality, but am still utterly unable to stop thinking or feeling it. I can argue myself out of it and I can't just change my mind. I think it's that way for most people who suffer from it.

THIS THIS THIS THIS THIS.

People who dont suffer from depression have a hard time understanding this, because it is a difficult concept. Even when you know something isn't true, your brain will keep hounding on it until it eats away at you.I
I tend to have hysteria, and paranoia. I don't trust very many people, or in fact, any. Which makes it hard to have a real relationship.

Also, my avatar represents how lonely I feel, and my title "missunderstood" isn't a DT reference, it's just how I feel, and my personal text indicates the drug usage that has come from my depression.

And I'm happy this thread exists now, I like how this could play out, the best feeling is to realize you aren't the only one. I'll probably end up posting a lot on it...
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« Reply #33 on: January 30, 2010, 07:00:25 PM »
Depression doesn't listen to logic. I can be fully aware that what I am thinking and/or feeling is completely irrational and contrary to reality, but am still utterly unable to stop thinking or feeling it. I can argue myself out of it and I can't just change my mind. I think it's that way for most people who suffer from it.

THIS THIS THIS THIS THIS.

People who dont suffer from depression have a hard time understanding this, because it is a difficult concept. Even when you know something isn't true, your brain will keep hounding on it until it eats away at you.

mm, this :-\

this the Lonely Hearts thread for people that suffer from depression, eh? Might need to bookmark this thread...

My life actually isn't horrible, but... I just find it difficult to enjoy anything. I'm rarely ever happy and always feel apathetic or sad; one of my few conduits for emotion, no matter how slight, is music, which is why I hang out around here so much. My other passion is writing, but, alas, I've had writer's block for a few years.

I'm a misanthrope and very disillusioned with the current state of the world, but, harking back to what Hyperplex says, depression doesn't listen to logic, and that applies to my misanthropy. I have a habit of judging others unfairly and as such find it incredibly difficult to connect with people. I believe everyone is inherently evil and animalistic, and I can count the people I trust on one hand, and as stupid as I know that sounds, I can't help but think that way. Fuck, I dropped out of High School just because I hated everyone around me so much, and that's just going to screw me over for my future. :\

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« Reply #34 on: January 30, 2010, 07:08:57 PM »
I went through 2 years of really hardcore depression. This forum is one of the few things that helped keep me sane. I never wanted to take medication for it, but 3 months ago I started taking Zoloft. I must admit, it is the best decision I ever made.