According to some of my Christian friends I'm going to burn for not accepting Jesus Christ as my lord and savior.
that seems excessive
Doesn't stop all Southern Baptists (I've even had teachers from elementary school do this to me) in my area from hating and spitting on me anytime I try to speak to one.
But on-topic:
Am I going to hell? Who knows. I don't know, maybe. Its something I've thought about a lot. What is hell even? Is it some place where the big red guy takes bad souls into a lake of fire and torments them forever? Or maybe its some kind of control device to scare people? Or is it merely a metaphor of some kind?
Those are all possibilities, but I tend to look towards the last one. I've viewed hell as metaphor instead of an actual place. Same goes for heaven. I don't think these places physically exist at all. Rather, they represent different sides of humanity, the good and the bad. Order and Chaos, Heaven and Hell.
Now, one issue I have with the Christian concept of Heaven and Hell is that because of what someone else did, I'm automatically evil. I don't get any say in that at all. No matter what, I'm a bad guy unless I hand myself over to Jesus. Personally (And I mean no offense to any Christians here), I call bullshit on that. It seems like no matter what, humanity is destined to fail, with no way out. Honestly, I view that as a nihilistic and rather hollow (And misanthropic as well) way to live. To live believing that what you are is evil and bad and the only way to ever achieve happiness is to give your soul over to Jesus so you can forever be a servant to God? I don't see the happiness in being born only to be a servant. Maybe I'm just retarded. Because I don't see it. I see happiness in being what I want to be while hurting as few people as possible. I see happiness being an individual, and not a slave to God. I don't exactly worship Satan either though. I want to be myself, I don't want to be like either God or Satan (Heaven and Hell). I just want to be myself and live happy like that. Sure, I'm going to fuck up every now and then. But I'm human, so that's expected. And I like that. And as far as I'm concerned, perfection leads only to madness. Those that try to achieve perfection only become insane. Perfection is boring. I don't want to be perfect like God. Its completely predictable. I don't like it. I like life here on Earth. I like being an imperfect human being. No, I love it. There's pain in it, yes, but the pain is necessary. Its good in a sense. You have to take good with the bad. Without evil, good can't exist, and the opposite is also true. There's nothing to compare it to without knowing what the opposite is like. That's why I call bullshit on the idea of Heaven and Hell. That's why I don't think there is "Eternal Happiness" because if all you know is happiness then you cannot know pain. And without pain, the concept of happiness is completely moot and all you are is a hallow being. I don't think even God can change that. So I'll take both. There are times I'm good, and times when I'm evil. I'll take that in stride and be proud of that. That's because I'm a human fucking being, and I think that's something to be prideful of, not to be ashamed of.
tl;dr Heathen justifying why he's going to hell, etc.