Hi....I’m the guy who has never vented on DTF before.
3 years ago, a wonderful mother of 3 from my congregation (and a friend in music...one of the few I had) was out on a motorcycle excursion with her family in Northern California. A logging truck spilled. Her husband (also my friend) broke his spine. The two sons were out in front and missed everything. She was killed instantly.
A year and a half ago, an older friend of mine succomed to cancer.....one year later, his son who was only 35 (and a close friend of my son) also died of cancer.
In March of 2017 my mother in law (who my wife and I had been taking care of in our home for 12 years) died at the age of 92.
2 months ago, a dear friend that I was once very close to, but had lost touch with, died of a heart attack. (Don’t wait to tell someone how much they mean to you).
1 week later, my brothers best friend died of liver failure. I had 2 funerals in two weeks.....3 in one month.
And just to put the cherry on top....the holidays are particularly hard on people. My company has had 3 suicides in the last month. One I knew personally (though not for very long)...a second one I had no contact with at all. The third was only 27 years old, and an apprentice of a close friend. What’s even worse was that this kid called him to say “I’m setting my house on fire, please come pick up my pet snake”, then hung up. My friend didn’t get there fast enough. The kid committed “suicide by cop” because he decided to come out with all guns blazing when the cops showed up to respond to the fire. Think what you want about the kid...but he left people behind who will never be the same...especially my friend.
And just being surrounded by death (on top of being the full time cargiver to my wife who is disabled both physically and mentally (bipolar)) had put me in a pretty deep state of funk.
I am seeing a therapist next week. My regular therapist moved out of my area...and actually told me before she left that she didnt think I needed therapy at all.....but that was before ALL OF THIS happened.
Can I be done with death for a little while please?