The only thing I'd add to what Jackie said is that no reputable doctor is going to do anything to you without you getting plenty of therapy and counseling beforehand. Might as well start now. Really, that's the first step for pretty much any scenario.
This. Seek therapy to help you understand and dig deeper into these feelings, also to help you learn coping strategies in dealing with friends, society, parents if transition is ultimately what you seek. This is your journey. Get the best advice and help that you can. From a professional.
Yeah, that's exactly what I plan on doing.The idea that I can't be put on anything yet is a little disheartening, but I guess coping strategies are the next best thing.
I think the important thing that I would like to reinforce is what you just wrote, and that's the notion of "therapy" as a "strategy", coping or otherwise. In my limited (but still probably more than many) experience in this, "therapy" comes across as "fix your problem", and it's not that at all. I can't speak for anyone else here, but when I say "therapy" it's not code for "you're fucked up and you need to get fixed". It's straight up just we all need all the help we can get, and if you can get a knowledgeable, sympathetic therapist to help you navigate the tough waters - as well as to keep you honest, because in my humble experience the most common "problem" that we humans - gay, straight, trans, otherwise - experience is that we have a hard time being honest with ourselves (but that's another thread, I think) - you'll undoubtedly be better off.