Abnormalized...
I never really thought much about people early in life, especially in comparing them or identifying much with them. I am an enigma of sorts. A bit of an alien, when such matters are brought up.
Just to give a brief example, so you can see how different I am, as to abnormalize my way through normalization.
You already know my left handed issues, but there are plenty more, in which makes me abnormal to just about abnormal anyone I could come accross. So here is my brief list of abnormalities, which makes it impossible to identify with others... lack of showing emotions, color blindness, slightly autistic, slightly dyslexic, slightly ADHD, no greedy, no selfishness, no anger, and a strong dislike any thing that effects my normalized self... meaning if anything that effects me out of my own existence, I refrain from taking part. Example, will try my best not to take medications, if side effects are bother some. Which many do bother me. Those are the primaries, but I still have many.
Oddly enough as a point before skipping the thought... i cured some of my AHCD and dyslexia by using a tablet for 10 years. Thumb typing and auto replace became such an annoyance, that it broke me from correcting many mistyped or autocorrected words. I just leave them be, because i have other thoughts that need no distraction. So as a wee fix for peeps like me, try my method to become normalized with being imperfect. Ha!
As for some secondaries. I have very dry skin over 90% of my body, which to me is perfectly normal. What annoyed me is every time I had to hold hands in school activities, I felt creeped out with clammy soft hands. Who knows, if my hands creeped them out as much, in comparison. Ha! Oddly enough, I look fairly normal all my life, as to not get mocked about skin issues or what ever. Also I look about 10 to 15 years younger than I am. Tom Cruise and Johnny Depp have nothing on me. I am not vain enough to deal with beauty what nots, but there you go. Mostly because I was a super slow grower once I hit 12. My cousin took steroids in high school because he was like me. It never bothered me, as I thought it was normal, until high school. But it never bothered me then, nor while being an adult. Mostly because most adults around me, acted just like they were, back in high school. Again very annoying. I guess I got very annoyed at normalcy, more than being abnormal in a non conforming world.
The biggest annoyance was the only relationships I found before my 33rd birthday, was with 21 year olds. Not that I hung around night clubs for 18 and over. Ha! Just they congregate around me in a peculiar way.
So I ended up knowing right away, my mind would explode, if I kept believing things would catch up. Everything else with people in general, were better off being acquaintances. Too much drama for me, when I had perfect normalcy with out being dragged into their termoils. I guess, if I dwelled on all my issues, I would be just as insane. Unable to move beyond being sad or angry. God forbid, I become overly happy... there has been times, but quickly taken away, like a rug pulled under feet. So, my big hint at life... never allow yourself to assume and expect great things to happen to you. The greater the gain, the greater the pain. I see too many trying to achieve in finding what they achieved is a deep emptiness. I guess you can say I am a slacker. In reality I achieve without great effort. For every achievement, I can always move from there. Unlike falling into the pit of despair.
If I had a clear handicap, I would be part of something. But I am a perfect, fully functional, abnormal person. Not that my mind is abnormal in that I am all Helter Skelter inside. Just see so much in a different way. If you remove greed, hostility, selfishness, and look at what is the issue at hand, you find yourself, just like me, in being in lacking compassion. Yes, you can be seen as an uncompassionate person, because you toss out your own feelings to find a key issue, that one may find fault with. Like it or not, your answer will just piss anyone off, when they have underlined issues based on anger, or greed, or selfishness, or a mix of there of. Yep, I can piss off Liberals, and Conservatives equally just by saying... Shooting Blanks Saves Lives! I can see it now, banners everywhere, bigger than 'Black Lives Matter'. It's the honest truth, but nobody wants to agree. Which is the point with democracy, today's fairness to disagree at all cost.
Looking at it, the world is abnormalized, and I am just an abnormal out cast, because normal people cannot clearly define themselves as normal in any shape or form. See, I just riled up all my estranged followers, who actually read this crap. Everyone wants to be normal, but me... So leave me alone! Ha!