So I mentioned the chick I went out with on Friday. I've been chatting with her, and just last night mentioned maybe doing something again at the end of the week. BUT, I've got building apprehensions. First, and cram will appreciate this, she lives almost an hour away. Not the worst thing in the world, but definitely worth considering, especially if she's ever late like she was. Second, she's a bit crazy for me, personality wise. She's certainly not boring, I'm just not sure I can handle all the talking, the hard to read texts, the ridiculous tangents and incomplete thoughts. It's kinda exhausting just texting with her. Not to mention, the majority of our date was me kinda spacing out and smiling and nodding as she talked about random shit that has nothing to do with anything. Don't get me wrong, I can appreciate her being herself, and it's not always fun for the first dates to be interviews. It just didn't seem like our conversation brought us any closer. And finally, she doesn't really have any friends. She's lived down here for a year and half. She's telling me how she doesn't do ANYTHING, cuz she doesn't have any friends to do stuff with. Echoing what we've been talking about, she's got a lot of personality and is pretty damn cool, she just doesn't make an effort to get out and meet people.
So those things have me apprehensive about moving forward at all, even just for fun. I don't want her to get too attached if it's not gonna go anywhere. And I can totally tell from her words that she's really into me. Pity is not a good reason to date somebody, even casually. Not that I really pity her, I'm just familiar with where she is in life and am aware of the damage that can be done if I choose to be selfish and only worry about myself. I'm considering slowly breaching the subject, by talking about distance concerns and not wanting something serious. Maybe she'll be down with only seeing each other on occasion for fun.