2 things... one was being semi unfaithful which we are still working on fixing, and the other was just a simple thing she said... telling me something just to get me out of her room (yea we live together but her mother, whom we live with, is against us sharing a room)... anyway telling me something to get me to leave so she can read... alone (she is loves to read) instead of just telling me, she would pretend to be asleep when I would come in for something then pull out her laptop and read... I know it's childish but I guess she had been doing it for a long time... basically lieing to me to get me out of her room so she can be alone... when all she has to do is say something. Like I said, I know it's childish but it got me thinking, if she has lied about those 2 things, one being a small thing and one being a major thing, what else has / does she lie about? how many times has she loooked me in the eyes and told me something, and it not be true? could be little stuff, like reading, but it also could be be things, like her going to her friend's house who made a move on her when we last had a fight... i asked her not to be around him for a while... does she stay away? or does she go over there when I am doing something else? One huge issue I have (kinda change of subject) is the fact that all her friends are guys... I have always had a small issue with it, but the one time I dropped it all and completely trusted her, I find out he made a move on her during a fight her and I were having.... She used to go over there when she was upset... how do I know that other shit hadnt of gone on? how do I know if that was the first time he tried something? The one time I let my guard down, this happens, and I am lied to about it... how do i know if i can let the trust back in?
my god this is a long rant....