I suppose that's true. I just don't feel like a leader, let alone a leader in the military. That, and I genuinely don't know what I want to go to school for, so I don't see the point in going OCS when I don't know what I want to do. That and I don't want to do the reserves because I don't want to come back to this podunk town and continue to work. I'd rather enlist, get in, get the experience... just rip the band-aid off and do it like my friends have done. How cool would it be to end up working on a submarine somewhere out in the ocean, or on a massive carrier where I can see the ocean, and come back home some years later with all these stories? Way cooler and more fulfilling than reserves, seems like better benefits too.
It's tough, man. After 10 years of working in the family business we're finally getting health care. I just signed paperwork and turned it in today to get health care. So if I do this then I'll be dipping out to go serve... probably less than a year after finally having health insurance. And I'm currently solving the boss's phone-to-PC issues, which nobody else here can really do, so again, ripping the band-aid off to join is going to suck unless something happens this year that miraculously changes my life. Ah, fuck, I wish life was easier