So, after five years in a seemingly ideal relationship, I'm joining the club.
Just a couple of months ago, I was talking to a friend of mine about an article I read the day before. The author (a 20-something guy) related that he participated in a two-week conference far away from home with his peers. Seminars during the day, drinking and partying through the night, you know the drill. Anyway, the point was that there were 12 girls, all of them in a committed relationship back home, some of them even engaged. Some took a few days of getting hit on continuously, some took more than a week to crack, but in the end, 10 out of the 12 wound up cheating on their respective partner. The article hit home, because I've been going to conferences for years, witnessing the very same thing. One girl even cheated after she proudly flaunted around her diamond engagement ring she just got from her boyfriend the month before. Another one married his boyfriend a few months after the conference where she cheated on him with two guys.
But I digress. I'm not going for any sexist conclusions here, people are people, some cheat, some don't, the reason I told this story is that I was sure that if it came to my girlfriend, she'd be among the two out of ten that didn't cheat, no matter what. That's what I told my friend two months ago as well. Everybody thought that something like that could never happen, even her mother and brother, so it was a huge shock to the system when it turned out that she did, in fact, cheat on me, under some of the worst imaginable circumstances.
It hurts like hell, I have no appetite, I have trouble sleeping, the works. I have plenty of good things in my life, a fantastic family, great friends, lots of hobbies, so I'll cope with it, but it'll take time. Fundamentally, I know that we weren't right for each other to begin with, and if I approach it with logic and reason, we would have ended up apart sooner or later. So, good riddance! But emotions have little to do with logic and reason, and -despite our differences- I really loved her.
Anyway, I found this picture, it's a neat little snapshot of how my life was nearly 5 years ago. We had just gotten together and had a long distance relationship for a few months. We would talk on Skype for hours on end. I was a night owl, and she would go to sleep leaving her camera on, and I'd play Starcraft or whatever, with her live feed in the corner of my screen, and I'd glance at her from time to time. Cute stuff.
Right around that time, I really got into DTF as well. I was so proud that someone had sigged one of my comments, that I took a screenshot. And there she is, on Skype, sleeping like a baby. I don't know why I was searching YouTube for hookers & blow, though. Good times, good times. But seasons change, and now it's time to take something for the pain, and turn the page.
Screenshot:
https://i.imgur.com/jLD2Pmq.jpg