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General => General Discussion => Topic started by: TioJorge on September 13, 2018, 12:16:13 AM
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So after spending a few days pondering the meaning of life for the umpteenth time after having yet another friend succumb to depression or whatever is going on with them and end their life, I find myself flipping through the DTF pages to take my mind off things and have begun to remember the members here that are still here from way back when I "joined" (lurked, I didn't make an account for another year or so) in the pre-DTF.org days when only a handful or two (maybe down to one? in terms of active members?) remain, and those that aren't here anymore for whatever reason, known or not (and then an even more select few that lurk under hidden or guest status).
To those that were and still are that are going through a world of shit: You're all awesome in your own way, and no matter what you're going through, and how horribly hopeless it all may seem, one day the tide will turn, and you'll be glad you persevered; thing is, that sensation you feel, those that love you and are glad you're around will feel a wanting for that sensation ten fold the day that you leave their lives. People are fickle, insecure, and mostly selfishly self conscious. Until the day that they lose something that they truly do love, but were perhaps a bit too self absorbed to see it clearly. We've all done this and yet never seem to remember it whenever we need said attention...it's a horrible human facet full of irony. In a lot of cases, everyone thinks that they're looking at them, but they're looking at themselves. Except for that one kid in the back of class that thinks no one looks at them and wouldn't give a shit if they disappeared off the face of the Earth. And there's a lot of those kids out there, who are now teens, or adults.
Not a lot...sadly...but some of those kids end up finding solace on the internet like I did. With such a vast virtual landscape, most find ridicule, jokes that go way beyond joking, and all around embarrassment. Somehow, I stumbled here, where once I trolled and acted like a complete and utter douchebag. There were a few that pushed back (rightfully so), but the fact that so many of you embraced me still and kept me feeling welcome is truly astounding. The fact that I have absolutely zero social media and have less than zero needs to go back...and yet I still log on here once every couple days (most of the time, once a day) is a testament to the fact that this is a truly special place in the millions (billions? I don't know anymore) of websites out there.
I'm rambling at this point but I'm tired...despite the fact that all I've done is sleep. Push on, for the love of all that is hopeful in humanity, if you feel like giving up. For the sake of those that love you that you either don't even realize love you, or that you're hurting too much to see it. People can be horrible, but one promise that is absolute, truthful in every aspect, and one that will never become a lie: Someone out there loves you. Maybe they don't say it. Maybe they treat you bad, but again, people are fickle and forgetful: The moment you are gone, they will wish they held on to you and told you that they love you. If you feel like you haven't said this to someone and are not doing so for whatever reason in the god damn universe there is, do so as soon as you can.
My name is George Lucas and I love you and hope you stay around till you are an old, decrepit old person with poop in your diapers.
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First of all George Lucas, may the force be with you.
Secondly, hope you stay around till you are an old, decrepit old person with poop in your diapers.
You know Kingshmegland too? ;D
Seriously, AMEN, BROTHER!!
That's a great post.
Everyone should say Hi to a handful of strangers each day.
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Great post dude. The tricky thing about depression or similar stuff is that people tend to purposely hide it very well by acting normal/happy. It's true man, I'm sure almost everyone here has at some point truly cared about someone in their lives but never said it to their face. I'm trying to make it a habit to show my appreciation towards people I care about and usually just straight up tell them. There's no harm in it, and if you truly feel that way, saying it out loud may just make someone's day. :)
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Going through some pretty shitty personal stuff at the moment (not directly involving me, but I am affected) and after coming back from ProgPower where I basically found a home and family I never knew I had, this is an awesome post. Always found my 'place' in online communities and being able to confide in other cool people who are willing to take the time to hear someone out has been a blessing. Hell yeah, brother. Good feels in this thread. :metal
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I saw the post this morning while at work and knew I had to put it aside until I got home. Great post man, stay strong.
I went through some pretty dark times when I was younger and luckily got out of it. Im sorry about your lost. I know what it feels like. Every now and then we need this kind of thread.
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Glad you peeps can get some good feels from it. :heart :metal
First of all George Lucas, may the force be with you.
Secondly, hope you stay around till you are an old, decrepit old person with poop in your diapers.
You know Kingshmegland too? ;D
I hated Star Wars for the first ten years of my life cause of the name. :lol
Also daaaaaaaaaaaaaamn at the King (joking) jab. :hat
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It's TAC, you just brush it off. Lol
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Always love reading Tio Whore-Hey! posts. Sadly, there aren't enough of them these days. :sadpanda: ;)
Too serious though. Not enough cussing or drug smoking. I was disappoint. jk... :brohug: (we really need a good emote for that).
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Late to the thread but I love you man.
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Wonderful post and thread! I frequent one other internet forum besides DTF, and it often serves as a reminder of just how great a community DTF is. Do people butt heads every so often? Sure, but discussions are usually friendly and respectful. This is a great place to be, and I feel honored to be a member with you fine people!
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seriously thought it was going to be a Vlasto Day thread.
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First of all George Lucas, may the force be with you.
Secondly, hope you stay around till you are an old, decrepit old person with poop in your diapers.
You know Kingshmegland too? ;D
Seriously, AMEN, BROTHER!!
That's a great post.
Everyone should say Hi to a handful of strangers each day.
That's what my Tighty Whities are for.
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Sorry to hear about your friend Tio. Suicide is such a weird thing to deal with. I've said it before here somewhere where I used to view those who committed suicide as selfish a-holes who only cared about themselves. Now being middle aged and having dealt with life a bit....my own anxiety and moments of depression and just having a bit of 'life' experience.....I know that is FAR from the case. I can't fathom getting to the point where suicide is the only option left on the table....but, I think that reaching that conclusion for yourself means that there has been a lot of trauma and hopelessness.
Having spent the past few weeks...maybe month or two...can't really remember.....away from most of my 'online' realms....including DTF....I can honestly say that this forum in particular means something to me. It's odd....because I've only met a few members in person, but having been on here now for some 8 years you do develop bonds and friendships with members. I found myself really 'missing' whatever 'it' is that this forum provides. It's a social gathering but it's also a bit more because there are quite a few people on here of who's opinion I greatly value....even those who I find myself disagreeing with. I've come to count on the banter...the advice and the push back from all of you guys.
But your original OP Tio makes some great points....of which is making sure that those you love and hold close to your heart know just how much they mean to you. To tell them that as much as possible because there are no promises that we will see tomorrow.
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Nice to see you back here at these parts Gary.
And fwiw, it was almost exactly 2 months. :biggrin:
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Nice to see you back here at these parts Gary.
THIS!
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That post was a great read. I have zero social media also, and besides a sports forum I play fantasy (Aussie football and NFL) which I'm pretty active on, this is my social media, if that makes sense. I feel I connect with a lot of friends on here than I do with anyone I come in contact with in real life. Frustrating that the people you want to have a scotch with are on different sides of the world, but blessed I can call them friends and have met them here. This is somewhat my sanctuary and has been for a long time. I really appreciate this place and everyone here, it's just amazing.
Been through my own struggles over the years as a lot of us do, but you are right George, perseverance and keeping your head up is really the only way to go. There are a lot of people doing it tougher than I ever will in the world so embracing what you have and people you come in contact with is important and something we all take for granted.
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Nice to see you back here at these parts Gary.
And fwiw, it was almost exactly 2 months. :biggrin:
missed the place a lot but needed to decompress a bit. May need more drastic measures to vent if my Blues keep playing the way they've been playing >:(
Nice to see you back here at these parts Gary.
THIS!
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